On Death

I am dying

Every day, with every breath I draw, I am closer to the end of my life. For we are born with a finite number of breaths, and each one I take edges the sunlight that is my life toward the inevitable dusk.

It is a difficult thing to remember, especially while we are in the health and strength of our youth, and yet, I have come to know that it is an important thing to keep in mind – not to complain or make melancholy, but simply because only with the honest knowledge that one day I will die can I ever truly begin to live. For when a person completely and honestly accepts the inevitability of death is he free of the fear of it.

I can only look at it all and sigh, for as death is the greatest mystery, so it is the most personal if revelations. We will not know, none of us, until the moment is upon us, and we cannot truly in good conscience convince another of our beliefs.

It is a road we travel alone, but one that I no longer fear, for in accepting the inevitable, I have freed myself from it. In coming to recognize my mortality, I found the secret to enjoying those years, months, days or even hours that I have left to draw breath. This is the existence I can control, and to throw the precious hours over fear of the inevitable is a foolish thing indeed. To subconsciously think ourselves immortal, and thus not appreciate those precious few hours that we all have, is equally foolish.

I cannot control the truth of death, whatever my desperation. I can only make certain that these moments of my life that I have remaining are as rich as they can be.



Dirty Wars

American Taliban, dirty wars

Lives discounted, tossed aside

Brainwashed  tools playing gods

Motives directed, JSOC’s whores.

Addictive killing, the lists grow and grow and grow

Hell, in reality, this unconscious mess

Lives taken for granted, dead men, women, kids

Americans blinded, most will never know

Peace by violence cannot be

Never ending war and platitudes for this Gestapo

“Supporting troops” is brainwashing carried over

Affirming war; this continued lunacy

Son droned down for the sins of the father

Americans withdrawn with wholesale bigotry

A story without end, a war without peace

What would it take to just love one another?

21st century existence

Is existence merely a trial of consciousness, a test of universal nature?  The base human state, self preservation and fulfillment of one’s ego, is encouraged in everything… at least in 21st century America.  Other parts of the world encourage this also, though in different forms or to a lesser degree.  It is nothing to get sad or angry about, it is ignorance brought about by controlled conditioning.

A revolution of thought is sweeping America/the world though, gaining strength, gaining force.  More and more peoples are falling out of sync with the established paradigm, realizing that the system is what is fucked up, rather than just their place in that system.  They are starting to step away from the narcissistic “me, me, me” existence and see that is no the way to anything of lasting value.  Yeah, it will soothe your ego (make you temporarily happy), but it is a lie and nothing near true happiness.  Peoples, all over the world, are coming to this realization!

On the Rothschild family agenda

If one wants to know what the evil central bankers are up to, one only needs to pay attention to the Federal Reserve and other Central Banks around the world. The power elite residing inside of this country does not begin and end with the Federal Reserve, that privilege is reserved for the interrelationship between Goldman Sachs, the Federal Reserve, the corrupt World Bank and the IMF. And now, Goldman Sachs is running the European financial system into the ground as another Goldman Sachs boy, “Super” Mario Monti, has taken over Italy to finish off what is left of the Italian financial system. Monti is also the head of the European Trilateral Commission as well as a Bilderberg member. And yet another Goldman Sachs boy is finishing off the job in Greece. It is the mission of Goldman Sachs to implode the global economy with massive debt arising from the failed derivatives market, in which the debt totals 16 times the total GDP of the planet and that debt has been passed on to the governments of the world. There is no way that any country will ever pay off this debt. The world’s financial system will be collapsed and then reorganized under the Bank of International Settlement. Goldman Sachs is merely the grim reaper in this unholy process.

On the Federal Reserve

What Americans don’t know about “the Fed” and it’s International Bankster owners may be the fatal blow to not only the dollar, but the country! Indeed, keeping the American public ignorant of how the Rothschild controlled Fed works is how they are able to get away with all their atrocities and escape the guillotine of the public’s wrath. The Rothschild wealth alone is estimated at $500 trillion. Ever heard a better argument for entitlement reform?

Keeping the America public ignorant of why debt crises and threatened government shutdowns are a semi-automatic ruse aimed at social programs; reinforcing that cherished ignorance is a vital function of mainstream corporate media (MSM). Prevailing “see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil” public attitudes toward the Fed are boosted by the trouble decent people have even imagining such an epic crime…there must be a law! Then, there’s faith…I really want to believe the Fed is part of the federal government.

No matter how many times former Fed Chairman Alan Greenspan and others remind us that the Fed is an untouchable independent agency, people like to believe what they want to believe, regardless.

An image problem with our country’s first two Rothschild-controlled central banks was transparency of the name, “U.S. Central bank”, or “BUS” (Bank of the United States).

Our current “Federal Reserve System”…now there’s a name with enough mojo to span a century, and even juice Congress into re-chartering the Fed for another 100 years (to 2113). MSM went totally mild.

In terms of persona, the Fed is Bela Lugosi. Spooky, deadly-secretive, omniscient, riveting…the Fed sounds like part of the federal government, sounds backed with reserves…a “system” instead of a bank—all a fiendishly-charming triple play. When the Fed walks into the room, heads turn. When the Fed controls a superpower’s money, heads roll.

Dollars From Thin Air

A dominant way to bank dollars from thin air is the Federal Reserve System’s entitlement.

For instance, to circulate another billion dollars of fiat currency, our government does not print debt-free U.S. Treasury Notes, as mandated in the Constitution. Instead, a billion dollars of debt (Treasury bonds) are given to the Fed, who then creates from nothing a billion dollars in Federal Reserve Notes and loans them to the government at compound interest. Whether it’s currency, or digits on a computer screen, by creating money this way, the amount of debt created is always more than the dollars created, leaving no way for the debt to ever be paid off.

Entitlements are one thing; the Fed’s exclusive dollar monopoly seems otherworldly. Could there be a greater entitlement than ownership of the dollar with accountability to no one?

By auctioning its (free) Treasury bonds through “Open Market Operations”, the Fed helps spread U.S. debt around the world.

1913 was a brutal year for U.S. public interest. The Federal Reserve Act, and the 16th Amendment (federal income tax) both began transferring wealth from the public to the elite in 1913. So much money is needed to finance government debt created by private central banking, a personal income tax is demanded.

When you write a check to the IRS…notice the endorsement on the payment coupon: “Pay any F.R.B. Branch or Gen. Depository for credit U.S. Treas. This is in payment of US. oblig.”

In other words, Pay the Fed.

Fractional Reserve Banking is another magical mystery machine for creating money from nothing, or as George Bush I blabbed:

“…the continuous consolidation of wealth and power into higher, tighter and righter hands.”

Bush I was talking about the reason for Iran-Contra, but wealth consolidation is what power is all about. Power to the People is exactly what the Fed is not about.

One of the Fed’s duties is regulating reserve requirements of member bank, currently 3% to 10%, depending….

Fractional-Reserve money creation, most simply: A bank at 10% reserve requirement gets a $100 deposit. The bank is allowed to lend $90 dollars of that deposit, so the original $100 dollars has become $190…and through subsequent lending, the bank may inflate the original $100 deposit into $1,000 dollars. A foundational transfer from those who create wealth, to those who manipulate wealth.


“Troubled Assets Relief Program”—taxpayers must relieve the global financial system of its bad bets. But….

How can an asset be “troubled”? People can be troubled, as upon learning festered secrets of private central banking. Indeed, private central banking reduces people to assets ripe for austerity. So doesn’t “troubled assets” seem a better label for taxpayers than for bad bets?

The global financial system is a casino with private profit and public risk, thanks largely to something power keeps people from thinking about, much less understanding: Derivatives.

“Derivative” is a well-groomed way to say a side bet has been made on anything you might imagine. A Bloomberg article from October 18, 2011, described them this way:

Derivatives are financial instruments used to hedge risks or for speculation. They’re derived from stocks, bonds, loans, currencies and commodities, or linked to specific events such as changes in the weather or interest rates.

Often highly-leveraged, derivatives prowl a mostly-unregulated market dominated by international banks of the Too-Big…! variety. Irresistible roulette, derivatives are the wicked queen of casino finance.

Taxpayers on the hook for, officially…$700 billion—or was that $800 billion, officially, to bail out Too-Big…! banks? Remember the ephemeral public outrage? The image of Treasury Secretary Henry Paulson (between stints at Goldman Sachs) going down on one knee to beg Speaker of the House Nancy Pelosi to pass TARP before the world imploded—that image should be tattooed upon the mass American consciousness.

However, MSM has minimized the image to barely a footnote that at least characterizes the science/art of bait-and-switch.

Taxpayer liability from TARP is closer to $23.7 trillion, and thanks to the Fed, forever inflating.

An Odd Audit

The Fed is a private agency not subject to the Freedom of Information Act, and the Fed threw enough power at reinforcing this fact to make it shocking that Congress mustered enough votes to actually force a peek into some of the Fed’s books.

Since the Fed serves the interests of its owners, the Government Accountability Office (GAO) “limited audit” gave MSM plenty to suppress.

Between December 1, 2007 and July 21, 2010, the Fed gave $16.1 trillion to banks and corporations around the world—loans virtually free, backstopped by the American public.

Recipients listed on page 131 of the “audit report”:

Citigroup – $2.513 trillion
Morgan Stanley – $2.041 trillion
Merrill Lynch – $1.949 trillion
Bank of America – $1.344 trillion
Barclays PLC – $868 billion
Bear Sterns – $853 billion
Goldman Sachs – $814 billion
Royal Bank of Scotland – $541 billion
JP Morgan Chase – $391 billion
Deutsche Bank – $354 billion
UBS – $287 billion
Credit Suisse – $262 billion
Lehman Brothers – $183 billion
Bank of Scotland – $181 billion
BNP Paribas – $175 billion
Wells Fargo – $159 billion
Dexia – $159 billion
Wachovia – $142 billion
Dresdner Bank – $135 billion
Societe Generale – $124 billion
“All Other Borrowers” – $2.639 trillion

“Quantitative Easing”

In the middle of December, 2012, the Fed announced another Quantitative Easing (QE-4). In addition to QE-3 creating new money to transform $40 billion of toxic waste on bank balance sheets into taxpayer liabilities, QE-4 bumps the monthly taxpayer tab up to $85 billion.

A quip amid Weimar Germany hyperinflation went something like this: “If a wheelbarrow full of money were left on the street, thieves would dump the money, and steal the wheelbarrow.”

How much more Quantitative Easing will it take to deliver America’s Weimar Moment?

Since the Federal Reserve Act in 1913, the dollar has lost 95% of its purchasing power.

In the four years since QE-1 (middle of the last “financial crisis”), the dollar’s value in gold has fallen more than 50%.

Early in 2012, the Federal Reserve Open Market Committee announced the Fed’s goal of devaluing the dollar 33% over the next twenty years.

With dollar creation running wide open, and QE-3/QE-4 pouring $85 billion each month to scrub toxic waste from banks’ balance sheets, America’s Weimar Moment approaches the horizon.

We should have paid attention to Louis McFadden:

“The Federal Reserve (banks) are one of the most corrupt institutions the world has ever seen. There is not a man within the sound of my voice who does not know that this Nation is run by the International Bankers.”


“Some people think the Federal Reserve Banks are the United States government’s institutions. They are not government institutions. They are private credit monopolies which prey upon the people of the United States for the benefit of themselves and their foreign swindlers” (Congressional Record 12595-12603 — Louis T. McFadden, Chairman of the Committee on Banking and Currency June 10, 1932).

Or Lindbergh:

“The financial system has been turned over to the Federal Reserve Board. That Board as ministers the finance system by authority of a purely profiteering group. The system is Private, conducted for the sole purpose of obtaining the greatest possible profits from the use of other people’s money.” (Charles A. Lindbergh Sr., 1923)

Prominent Americans have long pointed out that the Fed is a private banking cartel designed to systematically destroy the dollar, drain wealth of the American public and crush the federal government with debt.

Ben Bernanke, current chairman of the Fed, actually told truth about the Great Depression in his speech at a University of Chicago conference honoring the 90th birthday of Milton Friedman, concluding with:

“Let me end my talk by abusing slightly my status as an official representative of the Federal Reserve. I would like to say to Milton and Anna: Regarding the Great Depression. You’re right, we did it. We’re very sorry. But thanks to you, we won’t do it again.”

MSM excels at suppressing leaked documents and defector testimony that clearly reveal the Fed’s zeal over the thousands of banks and farms they hoped to acquire for pennies on the dollar by inducing a depression. MSM has also protected the public from the truth that derivatives were at the heart of the 2008 financial crisis, and will define the next crisis.

Estimates of the notional value of the global derivatives market range from $600 trillion to $1.4 quadrillion. Webster Tarpley said this about derivatives:

“Far from being some arcane or marginal activity, financial derivatives have come to represent the principal business of the financier oligarchy in Wall Street, the City of London, Frankfurt, and other money centers. A concerted effort has been made by politicians and the news media to hide and camouflage the central role played by derivative speculation in the economic disasters of recent years. Journalists and public relations types have done everything possible to avoid even mentioning derivatives, coining phrases like “toxic assets,” “exotic instruments,” and – most notably – “troubled assets,” as in Troubled Assets Relief Program or TARP, aka the monstrous $800 billion bailout of Wall Street speculators which was enacted in October 2008….”

With their ownership of MSM, and history of doing whatever they want—including whatever it takes to protect their dollar entitlement, the Fed might seem impossible to root out. And regardless of how severely they try to complicate the whole Fed crime, our choice is exquisitely simple:

Kill the Fed or the Fed will kill us.

Our only other choice is limping from economic bubble to bursting economic bubble, hobbled by debt and drenched in austerity until we can limp no more. And if MSM ever publicly calls derivatives, “derivatives”, it’s far too late. The imminent financial crisis will render public interest a ghost from a distant past.

The only epoch offering Americans a future: the Fed, AD.

The Fed, after death.

Bela Lugosi liked to say, “There is no…other way.”

Baked: A Traveler’s Tale

you know, I am baked as fuck right now but thinking oh so “clearly”… I am going to talk to you with no attitude, no snarky comment oor paragraphs.

You know I love you, maybe that is my problem… you do not know what love is, as clearly stated in my poem and our past conversations. I know what love is and know that I do love you. That is the only reason I am even talking to you to be honest. I am intelligent, highly intelligent. i know everyone I know would tell me I am a dumbass for even talking to you still. Especially with how you hurt me, the first time I had let my guard down in two years… and you regularly hurt me because you are being very cowardly and do not want to face tough decisions. Like is he the one? if he is the one, am I the lady to be his one? But what of these fatasy guys that are everything I want my man to look like, but they lack that spiritual quality… that chi connection… the energy? I am talking the emotional cosmic energy, not brain washing bull shit.

I am so high right now… it has gotten progressively worse as this little “whatever the hell I am” monologue continues. I love you, I do… is it stupid for me to be here stating that? probably, yeah… Do you really want to be with a blond, disabled, former star whose star took a different path, who is the most amazing man you have never met and know quite well or or do you want to follow your physical lusts and lose yourself in the shallow decay pf a deadened spirituality?

I am at an amazing high and I am hearing myself tell myself’s self that I am here on this planet to broaden the spirituality of everyone… Everyone in American society is encouraged to become absorbed in the ego, the base/primal state… a living hell.  That is what  Jesus and Buddha and Confuscious… well maybe not him but whatever.  Maybe they, being spiritual guides, were telling us that hell is the present situation in the world.

The hell we live in is an encouraging egoistic state where there is no end to the misery because we are the misery… Earth is a heavenly body, the mother of all bodies. Every atom in our bodies was once part of the earth, biological organisms we are, we need to get out of this egoistic and destructive nature we have bound ourselves in and and learn to coexist with everything… life is a part of death and death is a part of ;life.

Energy, Every thing is made of energy…. the thoughts I am sending out to various peoples… thoughts of comfort, thoughts to have good dreams, etc etc.  every physical thing, every thought, every emotion, every pointed thought.  Everything, on the subatomic llevel is made of puire, unaltered energy!

That is kind of an oxymoron… me sitting here talking about subatomic energy being altered…. energy can not be created or destroyed it only changes form.  Like right now… th high is reaching it’s zenith… and I am swimming, oh shit!!! Get that man away from the keyboard!  He may be borderline adaptable genius, he may be one hell of a survivor… I lost where I was going with that.. it just slipped right out there.. *PLOOP* it is gone!

My acident was the beginning of my spiritual awakening… I began, while my brain was healing and still that comparable to a child, was absorbed in the ego-driven “moral guide” (somehow those are just two conflicting ideas… morals and religion??? very counter productive… seeing that the main reason for life is for the energy, I have been talking about,has gained the ability to be aware of itself….

I feel fucking amazing!  My fingers are just flying over the keyboard and I hunt and peck with my pointers… I gotta be doing 50+ words a minute… holy shit!  lol I am focused!

Thoughts are flowing and this “whatever the hell I a,m” is a record of the randpom shit going through my head, allk of the time… all morning, akl afternoon, all evening, all night.. four quadrants… four pillars of life

Earth, air, wind, fire… all four vital to life, all four vital to perform biological functions.  (I just erased a sentence i had been working on for 8 minutes… why did I do sometihng like that?)

*cue music* It’s like this or like that…
it’s like this or like that…*cue inding down outro*

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And gimme a one, one one do I hear a two twp two, whos gonna gimme two two two, sir with the green neckerchief has two two two… interesting choice of wardrobe two two two, we got three three three man in the lavender track suit three three who’s gonna gimme four four four can I hear a four four four going once,  going twice, and sold!! To the man in the lavender jumpsuit, yes that’s right i said lavender… -auctineer goes darth vader low/slow- LAVEnDER.

My mind astounds my unconscious self.. my unconscious self is my boring self, my everyday banal, bullshit life.  that shit gets old, very fast.  I mean, I am a pretty funny, exciting and life affirming guy. Energy, passion, zest, it all flows from the inside!  People wonder why I am so happy and why I am such an amazingly positive force.  I am a being in line and part of the next stage of consciousness bridging the gap of the Expected “heaven”.  I am living in heaven and hell, being a part of both worlds… a spiritual guide.  That is what I am, I would be a shaman in South America… a priest in the neolithic era, and the other pre-ego eras.

I wonder, could this be my first book?  “Ramblings of a Stoned Intellectual … Did I just go through the naming eureka in word… whoa Kyle whoa… WHOA!!!  The cart is way before the buggy there… lol.  That was a bit of forced humor… nothing I found truly funny but thought it might get a chuckle out of less humorously advanced.

Like I said, I am high… That is not me being arrogant, talking about the humorously impaired or less advantaged.  I am an interesting fellow and I am a big fan of peanut butter… and honey!  Sometimes I have them together, on a sandwich… sometimes apart, sometimes alone. You know, honey is an anti-viral and is very beneficial to human health.

We have to unite, become aware and change this every growing, egoistic mayhem and hell we have made this earth.  Humans have been around the earth for about 100K years as Homo-Sapiens… is hell on earth just a fear mongering tool used to deaden and depress people, have them living in fear because if they knew the truth.. they would wake up, they would stop.. everything would stop.

Just imagine that…. if there was a consciousness switch, like turning on a light… actually, I think that is what it is. I (we) have to help people flip see things fro what they are and ultimately find their switch… Only you can flip the switch, each and every one of you *points accusingly… jokingly* Stop looking for the external triggers, there are none.  What you seek cannot be gotten or received, physically.  Physical is Metaphysical’s little brother, always trying to find or compare but always falling short.  Oxytocin, sex, lust, physical yearning… that is the body’s Physical playground… the little brother… the proverbial “hellion”.  Metaphysical is the gateway to heaven.

The Kingdom of Heaven is being aware of conscious energy.  I am, as I said earlier, bridging the gap between heaven and hell… trying to invite a world plagued with darkness.  Holy shit, I am blue!  My energy is blue… but It was a horse of a different color as I helped my other friend last December… I put a protective bubble around her and it p[used light pink… hmmmmmm, has this very fine indica blend found my DMT center, my pineal gland?  I am feeling a sense of that spiritual moment last year.. holy shit, I just realized that was a real spiritual moment!  Awareness… = ) My brain is now starting to back og and fiond out if their were any other such moments… now that I know what ot is..

There is a reason they call DMT the spirit molecule.. “the god molecule” (wow, in my brain, I just walked through the front part of a Big Lots store) the reason is, it is the gateway molecule to spirituality.  People tripping on DMT are the reason people “feel” god during religious services… Religious services started out as community hookahs, that is why they were so very much revered… this is what religion is supposed to be… experiencing consciousness together, as a community of harmonious energy.  Everyone experiencing something similar to what I am right now