Social understanding 

When you have never experienced the sensual touch of another, being touched in a sensual manner is very foreign idea. I am very interested in the female form, sensuality, and mind, but I have never experienced true sexuality. What chances I have had have been frought with self doubt and negative self talk. 
I have had sex less than ten times in my life. I have came from sex three times in my life: 4/2/06, 1/14/08, 9/3/11. Here it is, April 2017, I can’t even talk to or meet a single girl without her wigging out and quickly establishing that I am a “great buddy!” It’s seriously very funny, in a morbidly grotesque fashion, that the only ones who see value in me as a viable partner are the ones in secure marriages or secure relationships….the “safe” ones. 

Are women that cowardly, that they see an amazing guy but he’s  physically differently abled, so they automatically sort him with the riff raff of other rejects? It’s laughable, really. This isn’t a piss and moan post, this is a sharing my experience post. I haven’t even made out with a girl in two+ years…3+ years before that. Ha! Seriously…I have no love life and a few interests. But I am a”great friend”. Perhaps if my injury was a bit more or a bit less permanent my greatness would overshadow my awkward physicality.

I know my intelligence and higher level of consciousness set me apart, but it’s troubling when the women on or close to your level are mixed up with fucktard sociopaths, playing the ids of ladies like a fiddle. That or their obsessed with their own ego driven savior complex. I don’t need a savior, so I’m stuck in that sense as well.

Yeah, go ahead and stop with your misandry and “omg what a misogynistic prick” bull. I don’t need it, this is my experience…it is wholly unique, much as the extremely traumatic injury I recovered from. I have been discarded my whole life by women and I know some of that was to my own doing but the major part is due to things out of my control. I know this, lamenting it serves no purpose but to make me sound like a whiny bitch. I understand the communication and social aspects as to why I am discarded.

I know we are human with human instincts and intuition, so calm your tits, feminists. I am for women’s rights, true gender equality, a Men’s Rights Advocate and MGTOW. I was dealt a shit hand, I have made it into a badass masterpiece, though it’s still made of shit…to put it simply. It’s going to take someone of immense mental/emotional/conscious fortitude to be able to consciously connect and physically/socially accept me. I choose to go my own way.

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