Love in the End I loved her, but when the night was over. It was but a figment of my imagination. A breath, a cough, a shrug. I loved her, but every day I'm learning her love was just a lie, not wanting to be lonely Naught but tripe and useless fancy. I loved her … Continue reading #157 →

2013 Led astray from the start, from day one I ignored the words in my head and heart I drew connected, cared for her and slipped into feelings undeserved, uncalled for. I ripped my heart in pieces over one who treated me like feces. the bottom of the barrel is empty, still she's reaching down … Continue reading #152 →

Wit's Finale A hand needed for a time, emotionally abused the while. Strength, an emotional support, hand to hold while struggles ensue. Freedom reigns and the shadow is denied. What comes next? Push aside the protective hand, the one that helped when falling. Wanting to run wild, a caged bird, finally free.  The trouble is … Continue reading #150 →

Ended Slavery Clamped in hell, twisted by thoughts and wicked words. How could she know that she is the fool? True loves splendor passed over for want of shit.   Flush the toilet let it be done. lament not the loss of shit.  Or roll over and die for the excremental purge.  I must not … Continue reading #149 →

Choices She needed a hero, a way to save herself, a champion of love... and then a hero comes along, she sees inside that he is strong with the strength to carry on.  He led her to a state of mind where she could gaze upon the stars, when they were yet unborn. Fear of … Continue reading #148 →

6 Months Tricky player, whittle duck, turn around and what the fuck is the intent for ego driven money lust? Realizations, some are just dumb, fucked up, retarded and lost.  You shrug and try but love is a lie.  A burning hell, what they don't tell is the thing that gets you is the smell. Intoxicating, … Continue reading #145 →

Mas Effect The beauty within, cries false as the beauty without takes over Trumped up ego and materialistic want cave true love's blossom Crawling back to simplicity, erred on wipes their brow. Nothing new, just varied form... ego does as ego is. Like the lumberjack robbing the world of majestic beauty Shallow and fickle ego … Continue reading #130 →

I Saw It I fell so hard inside the idea of you that's why, from me, honesty came pouring out I wanna stay but I think I'm getting out of here lost and trying to find yourself Trampled love cannot take it anymore that's why I must be getting out of here. You can stop … Continue reading #124 →

So there I was... I was five months from my thirtieth birthday, feeling as if my heart and mind had been tossed through a wood chipper and then piled under a compost heap for ten months.  I was disheveled, to say the least.  But I knew what was up, even though my heart or mind was telling … Continue reading Discord →

Want of Reason trust is nonexistent, fucking every dick that says hi for all I know, it has been that way from the start when did the lies start? when did lie become reality? knowledge is lost, pushed aside in love's stupor what the fuck?! This really sucks, i felt she could be my wife, … Continue reading #123 →

Constant Variable Like rock without bed, sliding on sand Faith without trust is shaky at best. Tried and true, stout stands firm In the realization of love's awesome power All think crazy and perhaps they are right In theory it makes perfect sense But love is not theory to be measured Love is just constant … Continue reading #122 →

Resolution He remembered how much it hurt when she withdrew the knife blood curdling screams, silent, in his eyes It slipped in with the first of many lies she told, burrowing deeper and deeper to the source of life. Right track skewed by wanton's lust Trust pushed aside for bevy of lies Misjudged intellect, naught but … Continue reading #120 →

Dreaming Tree Branch out, feel the growth... branches getting caught in wires sever the limb, growth carries on reaching ever higher, housing birds granting haven, value seen and cherished, as it should be. Safety herein, truth laid bare. Lies and deceit cannot survive in shade of tree.

Cowardice Made Manifest Another end, "thee end", is nigh, enough, too late in coming. Saw from the start what a fucked up mess this was, hoped it was ... different but the same is just suck, why to ever give a fuck? Ignorant tools trapping in ignorant lusts... truth laid bare, the truth of soul. naught but … Continue reading #117 →

Hands Off Drug king pin scarring hearts, tearing lives and souls apart High-end whore dressed nurse falls prey, this was a black-letter day Trust and hopes dashed to pieces, covered over with lustful feces. Truth laid bare in poetic form, never known to be the norm. Love, shown here, stands firm, not corroded by infectious … Continue reading #116 →

Catharsis A different time this might have been It seems to work the same, always though the five month span from November to March... Fucking Novarch! Trickery and deceit.... love and lies Standing tall, fuck it all, more is worth defined Star stuff, sane stuff, real stuff cannot be handled by the ignorant masses.

Fuck You Thrice The time for playing your luck is through. Now is the end, your choice is made. A life of loss and lessened love, fuck you. Care he cannot,too much he gave. Chance and chance, squandered and tossed Never realizing how much you lost Bleed he did, heart and soul.. the price tag … Continue reading #112 →

Guardian Angel Beginning again is not as daunting a prospect as felt at one time, not too long ago. He is learning very valuable lessons What he is worth, how he will be treated What he will put up with, his patience tried, limits are fast approaching, he feels no sorrow for the lack of … Continue reading #111 →

Not The End Feeling strong and worthy of so much more. discordance and disregard... thought as less than need less than want is more,  Traded down for less but with more superficiality.  Scarred he's not, memory made, and lesson learned. But no! He will not give up, cannot give up.

Saving Grace Bit in the ass, a pain as deep as any you have ever felt. "I told you so" will never be said, need never be said, you know the truth, knew it before some lessons are only learnt the way of the fist Fists and furious lusts, a dangerous combination. Comfort and grace … Continue reading #109 →

The Choice He pours his heart into the bowl of life Translucent and bright, it spins round and round Holding none in reserve, it's not his fault Life is to be lived unto the fullest Partial commitments dull love ev'ry time If both are not invested, why bother? Cull the verge and let true love blossom forth. … Continue reading #108 →

No Regrets On the first page of our story our future seemed so right the next page was sullied and it didn't turn out so bright I am still here waiting, don't make me seem the fool What you need, my darling, is far more than the tool. Lies and love.... a love profound, many … Continue reading #107 →

Keep Calm and Carry On A glimpse inside the life of one who has seen pain one who knows loss, one who has the strength to rise No amount of betrayal can take the fire from his eyes He has been here before but did not expect it again.   No worries are had, tears were … Continue reading #105 →

Love vs. Lust Sometimes you find out that the one you love is not what you want but what you need. The age old conundrum... love or lust? Logically, the choice is simple from without, from inside, she can't see the forest for the Mack truck parked in her yard. The one she is coveting … Continue reading #104 →

Residual Effect What else could explain such a connection with a stranger other than giving yourself to him that first night? Lies to self and those you love do not erase the truth Up all night, fucking your brains out, hope you had fun. Now, you are caught in a manipulator's trap; a victim of … Continue reading #103 →

Love Of Self Some things money can not buy, the frills will satisfy for a time but something much deeper is needed a connection of soul; of energy true that magnetic pull that lies within Drunk for a time on fantasies hashed wake from the reverie to a new dawn.

My Request You are my bliss, my all encompassing muse You see me for who and what I am You make me a priority in your life Reciprocation is unquestionably given A truth, an energy made manifest in a shared love A maturing of self; a mastering of spirit.

Single-Serving Friend Where are you going sir, the bellhop asked the man "I am seeking the one I felt there but know is here" What is the purpose of your fool's errand, kind sir? "The feelings I felt could lift a mountain, a champion love! Majestic and true... perhaps the greatest virtue. This love is … Continue reading #100 →

Laken That pain inside, that old familiar feel. One of the few things I am sure of being real. Lust is fickle, energy is blind, What the heart wants is passed over by the mind. Self-respect, being trampled not I have to stick with the cards I have got She played her games, fooled me at the start … Continue reading #99 →

Trunk Space Some hurts hurt the deepest, deeper than any you have ever felt. Fingers tracing countless scars, how could this be? The elephant is you?  The energy is powerful within your being. So much is counted against you, so very much, But the power within you is greater still, the truth is known. Is … Continue reading #97 →

At The Beginning Bit by bit you leave it on the floor, would anyone recognize you anymore? Shed one skin to grow the new, this more likely to be your true. Foolish notions thought by most, fraught at the end with warring ghosts. He understands and gives you space, to ease your mind, a loving … Continue reading #94 →

In Tandem [Laken]: "Just a passing thing they said you'd be but a long time passing you'll be to me you came to me in the heat of the night Oh, my love, you shine so bright! The night our bodies were entwined the feelings were passion and love combined yes, a long time coming, … Continue reading #93 →

Energetic Love A glimpse of a future unseen, of happiness in life abounding His vision cast forward with her in mind, entering his beautiful family Memories made in future past tense, he glimpses scenes of joy. The feelings he feels, surpassing all that have come prior, completeness. Excitement overflows at the possibilities he sees, he … Continue reading #92 →

KCCO Just when you think tis all since lost and resign yourself to the nice guy's holocaust she pops into your llife, again and again... Who the hell is this?!? Just when you think there are none who can see deeper than skin she drops from the sky, out of no where, and shows you … Continue reading #91 →

Not A One None could compare to what you are to me None could begin to understand to what depths i feel for you None could explain how it has happened that my every waking moment is engrossed with you, none could compare None could compare to the song sung by my heart when I think of … Continue reading #90 →

Vicious Manipulations A gentle caress to the hand, the elbow, a playful tapping on your shoulder/knee, hand in the small of your back, on your inner thigh.... you are kissing him, wanting to give yourself fully to him.  You don't know where this desire is coming from, your type he isn't and yet you cannot … Continue reading #86 →

Janet Taking a chance, he bides his time one moment to the next, stifling, drowning in a sea of thoughts, dreams and pain both intermingled, life does life but despair hangs ready, he dreams a dream of the beautiful she, The apple to the worm the night to the star, encompassing all, The pain is … Continue reading #85 →

Tenaj When all is said and done,will you be my only one or will you be another in a sea of what could never be? I have done all I could and wonder at the last... What will happen when tomorrow comes to pass.

JK  My heart is in tatters for want of what some call fetters Nary a day goes by when I do not wish... wish for the one who is worth the effort of my love.  I yearn to be the first choice, not a consolation prize or a pity play. A rarity, a gem, a … Continue reading #83 →

Graceful Submission Hand at the small of her back, he feels her body quiver or perhaps was a shiver at electric he feels, flowing through; energy between. He guides her through a throng of blank faces, disinterested in life.  She turns, smiles.  His breath catches in his chest.  Such beauty, such awe inspiring beauty! Trust … Continue reading #82 →

Le Sigh Never enough but always more than enough will any ever see the wonder within? Toyed around with, tossed hither and fro, needing respite from the games Why such melancholy dealings, how come there is no truth?

Chance One in seven billion, three, perhaps the chances of one is slim to none. Around it goes, this cycle of llfe, or love as it is. Wandering wonders that is all we are, forming loves that are unfit for life... if only to suit the need the need for acceptance, for physical touch. the … Continue reading #80 →

Fresh Not a shit was given as he said goodbye the usual pang of lost hope was nil Steadfast in what he knows and doesn't, finding comfort in curiosity At peace upon this plane of being breathing deep sigh of relief Why are these people drawn to him they say he is amazing, an awakening perhaps … Continue reading #79 →

London Burns It is a warm, dusky spring evening on the shore of the lake. He watched her moving with silk-like grace, Whence cometh these flames, burning alive a soul thought lost? Desire awakens inside  his heart. Hoping for a chance to make her his own, his one true. Love can conquer all, but can … Continue reading #78 →

True Men Shining armor is not the sign of a good man storybooks got it wrong Scuffed and dirty, a man that has been tried character is built in such ways Preconceived notions cheapen  the truth lies to self, lies to hearts. A wizened man knows what is the right to do he will not shirk for … Continue reading #77 →